Monday, September 29, 2014


Unknown- that which is not known.
A source a of stress for me, I hate the unknown. I am the kind of person who when faced with a decision I will often push it on to someone else if I can. and when I'm not able to do this I try and play out every option as far as I can. I spend a good part of my day playing out how things could go, trying to figure out my future, I never get it right though, there is always a factor I didn't calculate or something completely changes it, like someone doing something completely unexpected. I wish there was a book filled of every detail of my life, and I could read the next chapter so I would know what I was supposed to do, I don't need to know six yeas from now, just which path do I take today.
       I don't think I will ever stop stressing over my decisions but I hope that someday I can not stress so much about them. I have to make them wither I want to or not...........

Anything is common place once explained- Dr. Watson to Sherlock Holmes

Monday, September 22, 2014

Growing up!

"When I grow up..." As kids we say this a lot, but I don't think we ever really understood what that meant.
This past week I had to "grow up", I got a job working in the office of an mechanics shop, I am saving for a car to drive to my job, looking into getting my license, and I got a cell phone.  All of these changes mean I am now an adult, I'm expected to act, talk and behave like an "grown up". Truth be told, I was terrified at the beginning of the week I didn't know how to do any of it! But some how by the grace of God, I was able to get through it, and now I have a little ( a very small amount of) confidence that I'm not going to screw up to terribly. Going to the week a friend told me "confidence will get you far" and that has stuck with me.
So when I am faced with the next "grown up" thing I have to accomplish I probably be jut as terrified but I will know that I got through the last one, and I will get through this one.

"It might be hard, but maybe, it will be worth it" -Unknown

Monday, September 8, 2014

The Fair

This weekend was the Ledyard fair, I had a fantastic time. I ran the goat show, and hung out with friends I won't see for a while, some longer than others. We talked, laughed a lot, put little kids heads in water buckets (with their consent) and threatened them with the manure pile.
It was a great weekend, I would do it ALL again if I had the chance :)