So young, So Old
We all have struggles, here are some of mine, and how Im woking on getting through them. Hope they help you too.
Thursday, December 13, 2018
Anxiety...
https://www.time-to-change.org.uk/blog/life-anxiety-hard-when-people-dont-understand
I read this article and agree, If you can take the time to read it.
Tuesday, November 20, 2018
Cliche Thanksgiving post
Monday, November 5, 2018
Memories
Little things, little moments with the people I love, those are what I miss the most. Trey and I are constantly saying how we miss the little things. Cuddling after a bad day, food shopping, driving around singing loudly, and many more little moments we didn't expect to miss. If there was one thing we have learned through this LDR, is to cherish the small things, and never take them for granted.
I will be home for a visit soon, I am very excited about spending thanksgiving with our families. :)
Friday, September 7, 2018
Visit Home
I love CT!! I've been home (CT will always be home no matter where I live) for 36 hours. I've so far I've seen a bunch of friends, and have plans to see my family tonight. I love seeing everyone and hanging out with old friends. It's like I never left. I'm so happy I have 4 more days!!
I'm on my plane back finishing this. I had the best visit ever, which makes for the hardest good byes. I'm glad no one is sitting next to me so they can't see the tears rolling down my cheeks. I had so much fun with everyone, sadly I didn't get to see everyone. However, I saw my parents and had amazing visits with them. Even managed to steal 2 hugs from my dad! I went birthday dress shopping with my mom and sammy, and had soooo much fun. We all were laughing the whole time. Well, sammy wasn't when I made her try on this to small red dress and take a pic with me. That doesn't count though.
I went wedding dress shopping with 3 amazing women, Jenny, Lauren, and Sue (Treys mom). We, again, laughed the whole time, and had so much fun. I picked out a very cute dress. IT HAS POCKETS!!!!!AND LACE!!?!?!? HAHA
I met a bunch of Trey's extended family and had fun talking them at his aunts birthday party. I got to hang out with my ASL friends, they are as amazing as ever! We were missing one though :/
My last night, Trey and I stayed at aunt Lauren's. I haven't done that in well over a year. It was omg soooo great!!! The kids had NO clue I was coming. It took them a second to realize that it was me. Then Cora, hugged me for like 5 minutes straight. I got to have breakfast with them, and see them off to school. Cora was so sad I wasn't going to be there when she got home from school. She told me I should move close to her so I can see her more often. That girl nearly broke my heart....
Trey and I drove to Boston, only to get a message my flight is delayed. So we ran to Walmart to grab headphones (I had forgot mine at his place). He knew I was really stressed out about my flight, so he took me down to the beach for an hour before taking me to the airport. He knows me so well, he knew a long walk on the beach was what I need to calm down.
I'm going to miss home so very much. 2.5 months and I'll be back! I love ya'll<3
Friday, August 31, 2018
The Climb
I have been listening to ALOT of music the last few weeks. The babies sleep better with it on.
Friday, July 20, 2018
Long days
So my job keeps me busy. Like really busy. Babies eat every 3 hours and it take almost a hour and a half to feed them so I have an hour and a half to get everything else done. Let's just say I don't get much done. Some days are worse with babies that are really fussy, but other days are a little better where they sleep perfectly. Most days I get thrown up on at least once. I've peed on. Some days push me to my breaking point. I've come close to crying in front of my boss. Those who know me know I hate crying, especially in front of others. Some how by the grace of God, I have made it through these hard days. And I'll keep make it work. Everyday I don't quit or give in, I get stronger. I'm exhausted, physically, emotionally, spiritually, any way you can be exhausted, I am. However that's when you grow the most when your at your wits end, not when you're doing good. Those of you who pray, please pray that God continues to give me the strength and patience to do this job. And those who don't keep sending me your good vibes. <3
Thursday, June 14, 2018
One year check in...
First of all..... I GOT ENGAGED!!!!! Last October!! I am very excited! Trey and I are getting married in January, in New Zealand. Its just going to be us and 3 friends. No family, no drama (hopefully). There was enough drama when I told my parents that I had gotten engaged. Many words were exchanged. Things were said that hurt more than a thousand knives, and can never be taken back. I know one day these wounds will heal, but the scars will still remain. I love my parents and understand why they take the stand they do, even though I don't agree with them. They have chosen not to support or attend a traditional wedding. This is one of the reasons we decided that we would get married over seas. We have decided to make an adventure out of it, and are going to make the most of it. We are getting married in January but we wont live together until June, because....
I am in Kansas and have been for the last 6 months! I took a nanny job in out here in January. The kids I nanny for are 10, just turned 12, and twin 3 weeks old girls. I has been a struggle to adjust to life out here. I live with them and so I cant help but feeling a loss of my independence. About once a month I get profoundly home sick and miss everyone so much. but most of the time I am content with my job. I really do enjoy my job, the kids are great. I have made some great friends out here. They are amazing support system, and help me when I am down. I spend most of my weekends at there houses. My time out here has not been what I expected but it is still good. I don't regret coming out here only wish i could have taken home out here with me.
Some other changes I will just tell you, My grand father and Uncle on my Dads side past away. My car is broken again. My parents just sold the house I grew up in. Trey took a job in upstate New York, and is graduating in Dec. After he graduates he will move to upstate New York to be a camp site director. After I finish out here I will move up with him.